Update

I know the title is not original but right now all of my originality is used up and this really is just an update on where I have been and why!  My pregnancy took a turn on Sunday when I started spotting and has sent me on a roller coaster ride that is far from over.

Sunday, the doctor on call was not worried and told me to call the office on Monday morning so I did.  They got me right in and did a couple of ultra sounds and they could not find a baby or a sac or anything so they wanted to do a blood test to see what my HCG levels were doing!  When I got the results back that evening they were 290 and they scheduled me for Wednesday to have a second level done. 

Tuesday was tough with heavier bleeding (just like a monthly cycle) and cramping!  I thought for sure I was having your garden variety miscarriage!  Wednesday, I went in for another blood test and then waited for the results.  Keep in mind I have clients and obligations that are going on during all of this so I put on a happy face and went on!  When the doctor finally called me Wednesday evening, I was getting ready to photography 96 kids ranging in age from 0 to 4!  I was hoping to hear that the numbers had gone down but they went up to 309 which is not normal!   If the pregnancy was viable they should have at least doubled in that 48 hour period!

That brings me to today!  Something is not right and so I go to the doctor at 1:30 Central time to discuss a possible ectopic pregnancy which may require surgery!  My emotions are off the charts today!  I am scared and sad and in a general funk!  This is all amplified by the fact that the person who says he loves me is being less than supportive of me while I sort this out!  I feel so alone but I have to keep moving because my kids need me and someone has to be there for them!

Please just bear with me through all of this!  I will keep you posted as best as I can!

Just Venting!

OK, so I went to the doctor on Thursday and they did nothing but review my chart!  For this I had to drive to the office?  OK, so they did a urine test and took my weight (bleh) too but the rest was a joke.  I figured since I am old and not sure about when I conceived that they would help me figure that out with an ultra sound but NOOOOOOOOOOO!  They are making me wait until the 26th!  I could go insane by then, really I could!  They did, however, get me in next week to do a glucose test since I had gestational diabetes with the Diva and my blood sugars are already acting wonky (my favorite word right now)!  You would think high risk (age) + high risk (gestational diabetes) would = get her in here know so we can monitor her!!  In all fairness, I do have to tell you that there are two practices in the area that deliver babies so I am limited in my choice unless I want to drive an hour!  Sigh.............sorry, blame it on the hormones or as the Knight calls them horrormones!  LOL!

This N That!

It was a fairly busy weekend around here, well sort of!  Saturday I went to the store which made the family happy then I just hung out on the deck!  Sort of!  I was actually forced onto the deck because I was making eggs when the doorbell rang and I got distracted (blame pregnancy brain) anyway when my guest left, I walked toward the kitchen to find it engulfed in smoke!  Yikes!  I left the plastic spatula on the pan!  The smell of burnt plastic was horrible so I had to open all windows and get a fan to clear the air!  I was coughing and gagging, it was bad!  Great excuse to be outside!!

The Diva swam in her pool while I chilled most of the day!  Then I had an evening photo shoot with two very cute kids one of whom I am now calling bolt because every time I clicked the shutter he would take off at a full run!  Needless to say, I was exhausted when we were done!  LOL!  Next was a trip to the lake to visit friends and watch fireworks from the boat!  It was a beautiful evening and I loved it!  Including my hilarious daughter who had a conversation with a 2 year old that went something like this:

Diva (to a 2 year old in a bikini):  My mommy has bigger bras than you!

2 year old:  (blank stare)

OK, the adults within hearing range were in stitches!  It really was funny!

Sunday was church and then another afternoon on the deck before going to our local fireworks show!  It was fun but the Diva was tired and so was I.  Today I am in laundry and edit mode so I will be sharing with you soon!

My first Dr. appointment in Thursday and I am getting a little antsy!  I really do not like the first trimester at all!  I am a worrier by nature and I worry until I can feel the little one moving!  I am thinking about renting a fetal doppler like I did with the Diva so I can hear the heartbeat myself and hopefully relax a little!